heart&spinner

And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat (bn)

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I’ve been neglecting wordpress lately, mostly because I’ve been at a loss of words.
I’ve been posting photos, music, random thoughts over here now but that tumblr will never be nearly as personal as this blog is.
I’m really upset that I can’t graduate with my own class or walk with Patrick. I feel terrible that I did this but after I found out about that, I purposely failed my freshmen sem class again because I want the reason why I can’t graduate here to be my fault instead of the school administration’s.
I don’t want to accept that I got fucked over by them again so I fucked myself over instead!?! This is my excuse. And because of it, I won’t get any english credits towards SVA either… I’ve concluded that my mind works in terrible ways and really hates me sometimes.
I got into all 4 schools that I applied to this semester, even the more selective one but I chose one of the least selective and am still really conflicted about it. It’s not well known and people confuse the name with SVU but the photo program seems good. I’d still rather be attending another 3 letter acronym though. Hopefully, my forced choice will be validated after my first semester.
blahblahblah. i’ve said too much.
goodnight.